It’s a terrific Tuesday inspite of my 50 shades of crazy

This is a pic from the top of look out mountain in Tennessee, the fear I felt as that train neared the top was overwhelming but I breathed slowly and prayed for peace in the middle of my fears so I could enjoy the view...

I’m at the eye doctor with a friend of mines who lives across the street from me, she is an islander. Her accent is thick and some days she is full of words and the stories she tells can keep me hanging on waiting for the next word. Then some days she barely talks but I get it, I don’t feel like talking all the time sometimes I just wanna sit and be surrounded with nothing but quietness and listen to my own crazy thoughts.

There was a time when my own thoughts would frighten me but not as much any more. I stopped associating myself with these strange thoughts that speed thru my head. A now what I do is try and write it all down until I’m on E and the thoughts no longer affect me in a negative way. There was a time when I would try hard to change my thoughts so I want get anxious or panicky so what I try and do is let the words flow and try hard not to allow them to scare me into thinking something bad is about to happen. I try hard to let the thoughts flow so I can get them outta my pea brain so I can move on to the next crazy thought in my head..