Serene Sunday

I have had trouble sleeping at night far back as I can remember unless I get juiced up and burn me a fat one then I can sleep like a baby next to mom no bad dreams and I don't have any problems dozing back off to sleep when I get up to use the restroom ...

Last night was one of those nights I was restless as hell I didn't drink as much before bed because I start drinking to early in the day and I will get sick in my stomach if I drink to much.  Well yesterday was one of those days I was up around five and drinking before eight. I spent the whole day cleaning and drinking and toking so I want have to much to do while I'm on vacation. So close to bedtime I had stopped drinking alcohol all together just taking a toke from here to there. I try to stay up until around nine or ten at night. Last night it was around nine when I went to bed boared with nothing to do somewhere around twelve I woke to use the restroom, but I can't even go back to sleep because suddenly the bed is hard as a rock and my sciatia on my right side started to beat my ass and the pain radiates down my hip, thigh, and leg. I toss and turn on this hard ass small bed suddenly this hard ass bed became even harder and I couldn't find a soft spot anywhere in this damn hard ass tiny ass bed.

A while back I wanted to give my room more space so I decided to purchase a daybed so I did,  horrible mistake and listening to the sales person who told me the harder the mattress the better on the back and if you purchase this bed I will throw in the mattress. Hell yeah I will buy it I later found out the mattress was included as a package. I should have got the one that was more comfortable for me but I'm a cheap skate and a penny pincher. But any ways I miss my queen size bed and the fact when it was uncomfortably on the right side of the bed I could get to the foot of the bed or the left side, but not now, and now I feel it everynight and day. I didn't have a pinched nerve until I started sleeping on this hard ass mattress. Hopefully I can invest in another mattress later on and not continue to punish my mind and body, but right now I don't have the funds to get another mattress...

I wresteled with this mattress how long I don't know and since I refuse to drink and toke past my bedtime I wrestled so more until I dozed off only to be rudely awaken about two am to some hard thumping, I know the song just can't remember it right now but the music was so loud the walls vibrated a little. I lay here thinking to myself that after this song go off they will turn the volume down but NO. My daughter and her boys who were up at the time were in full party mode and her ole man and my other daughters ole man and a brother were in front of the tv playing a game so I stood waiting to make eye contact with my daughter. I stood in the kitchen looking at her and the children dancing and having fun, I love when they have fun but does it have to be so late. Eventually she twirled my way with the baby on her hip and she seen me looking and she started to laugh because she knew it was loud. She just laughed, I know its loud but I will turn it down a bit I will turn it off when I go pick Coco up. I said yall having a party and didn't invite me.

She turned the volumn down a tiny bit, not much but the walls did stop vibrating. I love living with my children, but I have never lived on my own and my plans are to get my own place, all my children are eighteen and over. The one left in school moved with his dad when I had to move. So I have been living with my daughter, she gave us until January to move out. I have so much going on right now, soon after we moved here in June the engine went out on my car and its going to be costly to repair. I have kept a home and a car for years suddely I don't have either and I feel so vulnerable as a result and can't wait to get my car fixed. I always say if I got a way to ride I have a place to sleep. I have a place to sleep but it's not my own. I will get my car back one day, but not soon.

I'm  trying hard not to make up my bed, I have to have a clean room and a made bed, I make it as soon as I get out of it in the morning...