Always under the influence

I am always under the influence of substance I don’t know what it feels like to go to bed at night without drinking or smoking pot just to function to help me to deal with everything that I have to live through every day of my life.

 It is scary out here people kill one another for no reason people get killed for no reason and nothing is done about it everybody seems to hate everybody else help me please to make it.

If you not scared, you are part of my problems. You who are not scare and fearless and kill and call it game and trophy hunting and human trafficking and slavery and everyday with no remorse are the reason I’m afraid to leave home and live in fear and I can’t dance to the beats that call me and I can only feel comfortable looking out of my window.

So afraid that a predator will still somehow overcome me and my loved ones or one of my loved ones and I will have to live and suffer because you have used us like we are science rats and have fed us what you want is to have until we began to wake up and fight back.

But who can we trust to spare us all or be the one to drop bombs on me while I sleep. He says, I come as a thief in the night. Many cannot sleep because most people use the sun to plan and many use the night to do wrong. They come upon us as a thief in the night, many cannot sleep because so much shit happened when the sun went down.

Power to not use substances, because the influence makes it harder to wake when you need to run...