Thursday, December 17, 2020

What is real happiness

 I have been depressed for so long it’s all I know and feel. I’m so tired of feeling this way, I want my happiness back but I don’t know how.

It’s hard for me to have a real laugh from inside. I just want to be happy again. 

I get tired from others and prefer to be alone so I don’t gave to talk and engage in conversation because I just don’t want to talk to others for long. I like being around others, just not for to long. I think I’m burned out and really do need some real me time. 

I finally have a place of my own and I’m looking forward to making it into a home for me and getting it pulled together so it fits my needs. I know my children don’t understand but I don’t care I need this so I can find my way back to me....

Friday, December 11, 2020

Own home

It has taken me years to get land and a home combined. I once had a single wide trailer but it was on someone else land. I now have the land trailer combo. Now I have to get lights, water and sewer. But it saddens me I still have to worry about taxes. Some will say render Ceaser his dues, but I say Ceaser is dead and so should those laws be. As long as I have to pay taxes I will never outright own land that was taken from others in the first place. Land that was shared by others who were welcoming with open arms. To hell with the laws that will take try and take away what is mine and paid for. Power to the people we shall overcome the inflections of taxes to once we began to pull together and stop keeping Gods up and their holy way of life while we suffer and they drink and are merry all day long because we the people make sure the Don's are alright while our families suffer and are tossed in the streets and trodden uu dear the hooves of the animals that ride on the back of horses or in the seats of cars....

All these white balloons and shit

 Please stop shooting shit down, what the hell inside. Y’all and y’all shooting gone have us all dropping like flies.  What in the hellO, wa...