What is real happiness

 I have been depressed for so long it’s all I know and feel. I’m so tired of feeling this way, I want my happiness back but I don’t know how.

It’s hard for me to have a real laugh from inside. I just want to be happy again. 

I get tired from others and prefer to be alone so I don’t gave to talk and engage in conversation because I just don’t want to talk to others for long. I like being around others, just not for to long. I think I’m burned out and really do need some real me time. 

I finally have a place of my own and I’m looking forward to making it into a home for me and getting it pulled together so it fits my needs. I know my children don’t understand but I don’t care I need this so I can find my way back to me....