Dating my age, wait any age bitch, you so stupid

 One thing I have found is dating now is no different than it was in my earlier years. A whole lot of horny men and me and a never ending supply of sex and no one who wants to date but willing to settle down or just plain ole settle.

Know this, I felt I would never find a man and if I did well let’s just say he ain’t wanted me, just looking to get laid. And because I wanted out of my mama’s house so badly, whoever said let’s, I was willing to go, and finally a Clyde wanna be came along and we both settled but he never settled down and when I look back I realize I stayed to long. My fears kept me there hanging on to someone who I really didn’t want. 

Maybe I went about it the wrong way I repeat it in my head, wait, don’t, stop, get to know them first and the sex may be more rewarding. But, but, but, I look for a potential mate but no one wants to date all they wanna do is mate and I’m cold and so tired of the dating game and don’t know how to wait, dammit I just wanna give it up, but something inside me says hold on a little while longer, he out there and he can still get an erection, NO MEDS. And if he need a doctor he has one and don’t mind going. And the things we have in common are endless, but wait, do fairytales really come true, cause bitch you sound like a drunk bitch dreaming, I hear my mama screaming, bitch you ain’t shit, you ain’t gone ever be shit and you ain’t gone ever have shit and no man will want you unless he crazy ass hell like you, you lil jip bitch, I shoulda got rid of you when I had the chance, you ruined my life just by being here. But, thanks to you mom I feel well rounded, who gives a fuck what niggas say, how you treat me says it all, and yes mama words do affect, but I rise above all that and yes I will find my Clyde and yes he will be just right for me. 

I’m at a age where I care more about a meaningful relationship than I do sex. Don’t get me wrong now I get that itch around nine in the evening or five in the morning and baby, Bob can’t get the job done. Well he can knock that itch all the way outta there, but I like affection to and I love tasting a mans skin while he sweats, and the aroma from his body turns me on and holding onto his waste while he does what men do and rubbing his head while he taste me, Bob can’t give me all that only my boo. 

It’s cold all my children are grown and this big ole bed feels lonely many times, not even a sleep over in my bed, no sex with anyone in my bed for years, damn, not even a Clyde wanna be. 

 I stopped dating even wanting to years ago and decided I had nothing to offer modern day men and they had nothing for me, not even sex because I had children and at that time was completely done with men, not unless he was my Clyde, and I will know him when I meet him, that was all wishful thinking because I need to date a variety of men in order to know if he my Clyde, or just an imposter. Then I took some time to define me after some bad decisions that let me know I need to heal from all the trauma I had endured and my hands were already full and men can be more demanding than children when they want to be, but Clyde know better than that, I don’t want no spoiled ass man ackin like he two cause he can’t have his way with me, I don’t need a brat, I’m bratty enough. 

Well, my children got they own thing going on and I need someone special just for me, my age I can do all kind of things with. Hopefully  I can find me a companion, a mate, a BFF, someone to click with and have fun with, a friend I’m really into and hopefully he feels me and not just another Clyde wanna be.

They shall only be a rumor of a rumor

One day we will ask where are the bad guys, where are the real monsters, hush my child mention none for they may appear

One day we will ask that question in whispers because one day none will want to hear and we will say their name no more and if you do others will refuse to listen to anything other than live and let live, we shall truly blot them out, no more wars, we all shall pull together and work it out.

We shall bloom like the blossoms once again and flow like a butterfly in the wind and sprint like a deer and run like a fawn and fly like and eagle and roar like the lion when we just wanna let it all out…

Roar, Roar, Roar my butterflies and float in the wind only sting like the bee if the lion wishes to come upon thee.

Weak nigga pull triggers and don’t use me for your punching bag because of your anger, use a punching bag and allow me my roar. 

Black in da USA

Born ‪Black in da USA, life of Blacks in da USA, Born Black in da USA, life of blacks in da USA ‬

‪I’m so thankful I made it home, I could have been blown by a white man and then I’m gone while my loved ones look upon him while he cries it was all in da name of self defense.

Life and dream of blacks in da USA ‬is to be gunned down each and every day in da streets by trigger happy men who call me a minority just because I was born Black in da USA, life of Blacks in da USA, 

Now I sit and ponder looking at other Blacks and wonder why you come at me like you a white man who can’t stand me because I was born with a Black face while living in da USA…

Based with color

 We should stick together based on right or wrong but instead we stick together based upon color. And this is sad and frightening when I hear someone say they are glad someone was killed based on the color of their skin and not because of something they may have done to someone else. Simply because of the way they look they will say, I’m glad they are dead….NO NOT ME, power to never feel that way about any other human being. 

My question to Dan Ball, real life

Good morning sir…

I like the diversity in your show…

But what I don’t like is how you will argue your rights while trying to block the rights of others…

Migrants are not the cause of COVID-19 and are suffering just like we are. I never hear y’all talk about how close Alaska is to Russia.

I do believe in freedom to all. Like I said I do believe in diversity and not in census but I want you to answer me on quick question, if the people who crashed Capital Hill were black what do you think would have happened…

Also I would like to know does the color of the skin really matter or should people use the color of their skin for their own advanced with no cares for others….

I hear you when you say you don’t think we should be stuck or should not have to take the jab and believe in freedom to travel by the rules of the law and not the rules of the land…

I never hear you address that, rules of law and not the rules of the land, in many instances a dog is shown more compassion than little children stuck in cages and no one to account for them at all and where do they go.

I agree with you those poop puppies held in a matter that is horrible to think about. Then I think on those poor small children stuck in cages with misquotes and roaches and rats and snakes and mean people that don’t care about them, only thing they care about is power and control and guns and ammo and weapons and killing and starving and we try and escape and the chain of life has always been free for those who migrate. Same compassion we have here in the United States of America for dogs and cats and the bald Eagle, which by the way is my favorite. The bald Eagle when I die I wanna come back as a bald Eagle. I think that is because I’m afraid to fly, I feel if I was meant to fly I would have wings. People who get on airplanes are some of the bravest people to me. 

I would tell my children the same thing I tell you because right now that’s how my mind thinks. I think on compassion for all, and then I say I’m crazy for caring about a person who would kill anyone for a reason other than defense or defending someone else from immediate danger if I’m able to. But I don’t really care about them at the same time, I have compassion for anything that includes being killed by another other than immediate danger to self against others who would take away a life for no apparent reason. 

It’s early in the morning and I’m usually full of conversation this early so bare with me Mr Dan I usually write all this jibber down when my mind is flooded with the things I see. 

Imma tell you how I stumbled on your show. I was bored with what’s on television and the mainstream news is so one sided I went to live television on the net and there was a couple of shows I listened to who share a whole lot of my views until it comes to calling me a minority. I try hard to view this country as a whole so I see myself as Native American regardless of DNA, I was born here so that make me native and I ask myself why do I have to pay so many taxes. I don’t know, and then we both agree on that along with the other shows and then I ask myself why we can’t all seem to get along? Why? 

Why are we not trying to heal the lands from death hell and destruction that religion has caused. I respect everyone choice to worship whatever or whoever they want but leave killing and superior ways out of the equation. 

Do you respect black people the same way you do me nigga, and I know you just shrugged your shoulders but I consider everyone born a human a nigga regardless of the color of they skin, we all colored a color, some just have an advantage over others and will be given an opportunity much quicker than me based on color alone. Many have been turned down many times based on color along and we still living in that, when will we stop with the minority bullshit and just say other people. Why?

I will tell my children the same thing, give people a chance regardless of what they do with it, I see people from all walks of life willing to take the most precious thing I have, and the only thing I own and something no one can ever replace, my life. Like I say when I come back I wanna be an Eagle flying high above the trees seeing the world a different way sleeping well knowing I’m more protected than humans by humans, humans love me as an Eagle more than another human, they will make sure me and my young have a safe place to sleep but will burn down the house of their own kind and will blow up whole neighborhoods of other humans and kill all their young but they are willing to protect me and my kind from extinction but will do nothing to ensure the safety of their own kind