Make them your friend before making them your lover

Boys are met along the pathway of a girl's life and they may both be traveling in the same direction. They may want to know more about each other and like traveling in the same direction together. And he likes her and she likes him and they kiss and nothing, they want real bad to be that couple who goes to The End of the Road. They both decide it did not feel good, but because they like each other they remain friends. The next person to come along may not think it's appropriate for the two of them to remain friends, my question is why not? They would be together if they really want to and they really don't like affection with the other person, it feels yucky now like kissing your brother. But they have a understanding for each other and a foundation that will always be there, they are great friends just going a different direction because they realize they don’t wanna be lovers just friends. Some are lovers and friends for fifty plus years they remain together, it may not be a fifty year stretch for me but I think it can happen, I think I can find my lover and friend if I don’t keep settling. 

I have not met that boyfriend just yet, I'm trying to learn boys better, trying to learn if we traveling in the same direction and enjoy each other company, stop talking so I can hear him, so I can listen to what he want and hear what he says to me and his kiss will spark a passion and not a yuck and never a lick up side my head, punching me like I’m a enemy of the streets.  My boyfriend, willing to give me a chance and to get to know me and decide if he likes me and I him and if we like traveling in the same direction, lots of things in common, enjoying the company of each other,  comfortable talking about things that are deep and meaningful. Considering each others feeling even during a heated debate. Having fun times and debatable times that are heated without losing respect for each other, no hitting, my mate my end of the road with me, if not lovers, friends. A constant friendship like one of my friend girl's and no he is not gay, stop stereotyping. 

Clyde, hopefully hes out there, he and I will have an all natural feel with that first kiss knowing we want to be together for more than just sex, the kiss seals the deal even if the sex not chandelier swinging great. A chemical reaction that is sweet and fulfilling, yummy, I love his smell his scent with no cologne or deodorant on after a fresh shower. The kiss was a turn on and not a turn off, oh no he's not the one, and sex made it worse no attraction at all, all passion and lover, ew yuck just went out the window, I don't even wanna go any further other than friends, nope, the sex made it worse, now it feel all awkward trying to avoid you. Bitch please press pass because it's better to live in honesty than in misery with someone you don't like being affectionate with. Have comfort knowing you tried and it's not because you don't love them, you don't love them like that, you love them like a cousin, yes kissing cousin, move past. Still friends though who really don't want to be together as lovers just friends like a sibling or a cousins, we were in the experiment phases trying to strengthen it, just didn't wanna be lovers. 

Many who are friends now may become lovers one day the kiss may be different and the spark is there. 

That one who takes times to walk the walk with me and not just talk the talk, don't wanna marry for convenience because I'm pregnant, my body my decision, if a woman has the right to terminate her pregnancy I have the same right to keep the baby and not be told they don't belong here, no they don't belong to you, they do belong here as do you. He will accept the fact I have children and grandchildren as I will accept his loved ones as well.