BFFMHA: I noticed the skull first each time

I went back and looked and looked again and each time I noticed the skull first unless I zoom in. I looked at the picture again and was not trying to, behold, it was a skull.

Maybe I keep seeing the skull because I’m not in a trusted relationship with anyone and life is not sending any good suitors my way.

We all are skulls to each other at the beginning of a relationship, kinda like the seed of a man fertilizing a woman’s egg. There is nothing there at first but the sperm and egg and with time and nurture a baby is born.

With time and nurture the empty skull that signifies the beginning of something is soon filled with great things if we nurture it and care for it. The relationship that can last for ever, like a mothers love with her child but the relationship with a partner is different, but love is the guide.

Well there is this one who has become a mystery to me and because it has been two years now that we have spoken with each other and no meetings and something always comes up, or his lack of interest and his don’t really care at all interest makes me very skeptical of his true motives or feelings towards me, yet I would like to meet him but he want ask me out and after asking him one time to many I’m trying to no longer want to meet him at all and move quietly into the night alone looking to meet the one who I call my Clyde, we will meet somewhere other than in the bed. To become one with a man means more than sex to me and Clyde will understand that and will communicate with me on my crazy days he will forgive me as I will forgive him, let’s not hit or beat. Let’s be honest and up front, flow through nature seeing all this beauty Mother Earth brings forth, and Father Time allowing us some long moments together where words are not important just the company of the other person I wish to be close to and they close to me.